Article #66

 noson ezagui

 tuesday feb 18^th 2014 12.05am sunday night at the lchaim of goldshmid to pewsner noson ezagui was there & let me tell you what he did to me there sunday night.yes he was pretty much behaving himself there but there is a small thing that he did to me at the lchaim sunday night that I didnt like.

He was pretty much behaving himself but he did do a small thing that wasnt necessary.he did not give me any problems there but he did do something there that wasnt right.

Now generally I dont want him coming 10 feet from me.now lets say he has something to do & the only way for him to do what he has to do is by coming 10 feet from me that I can understand.like if he wants to spend time with his friends & one of his friends is sitting very close to where I am at & he wants to spend time with his friends that are sitting very close to where I am sitting at that I can understand.like when he went over to be with one of his friends that was sitting very close to where I am sitting at that I can understand & I have nothing against him for that.that I can understand & he did nothing wrong there.nothing wrong with that.

But he did do a small thing that he really didnt have to do.right on front of where I was sitting there was a fruit platter there with things like cantaloupe & honey dew.ok if he wants to have some cantaloupe & honey dew thats fine he can have it nothing wrong with that but I will tell you what it was.this fruit platter of cantaloupe & honey dew there were fruit platters like that all over the room.the thing is that he comes over to the area that I was sitting at & takes from the fruit platter right on front from where I was sitting at.ok there is nothing wrong with that but here is the thing.if he wanted to have some cantaloupe & honey dew there were fruit platters like that all over the room so for him to come to my area & deliberately take from the fruit platter that was right on front of me why did he have to do that?why couldnt he take from the fruit platters on the other other parts of the room.he knows that he is frightening me so if he knows that he is frightening me why is he coming deliberately to my area & taking from the fruit platter that was right on front of me?why couldnt he take from some of the fruit platters in the other areas of the room instead of frightening me like that.when he came to my area to be with one of his friends that was sitting very close to where I was sitting at that I can understand but for him to come to my area just to take from the fruit platter that was right on front of me when he could have taken from the fruit platters in the other areas of the room I dont understand why he had to do that.

If the fruit platter on front of me was the only fruit platter in the room that I can understand but if there is the same fruit platters on other parts of the room why did he have to that?i mean if he comes within 10 feet from me but he doesnt have a choice that I can understand but when he does have a choice & he comes within 10 feet from me when he doesnt have to thats the part that I dont understand.

If noson can refrain from coming within 10 feet from me unless he doesnt have a choice I would greatly apreciate it if he can do that for me.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #65

my personal opinion regarding the closure of JCW

paranoia

sunday feb 9^th 2014 1.15am now regarding the closure of of JCW(jewish community watch)this is how I look at it.

I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & yes I do agree that something has to be done to bring it to a stop.

Now as far as JCW & the wall of shame was the right way to do it that I don,t know.

Or when he says that he closed because of lack of funds weather that is the only & real reason why he closed or if he is lying so that he can hide the real reason for closing that I don,t know either.

But this is something that I do happen to know about.

While I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop I do happen to know that molesting a child is not the only type of abuse to get somebody depressed.there are many other types of abuse that can get somebody also depressed.i do agree that molesting a child is one of the ways to get somebody depressed but it,s not the only way to get somebody depressed>& this is something that I happen to know about.my father never molested me but he abused me in other ways that got me also very depressed.

The problem with meir seewald is that he thinks that molesting a child is the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.meir seewald thinks that it,s totally impossible to abuse somebody unless you molest a child.

This is meir seewald,s way of thinking.

MOLESTING A CHILD IS THE ONLY TYPE OF ABUSE THAT CAN GET SOMEBODY DEPRESSED & THAT IT IS TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO ABUSE SOMEBODY UNLESS YOU MOLEST A CHILD!!!!!!!!!

this is meir seewald,s way of thinking.

Now I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop but to say that molesting a child is the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed that is something that I do not agree with.there are many ways to get somebody depressed without molesting a child.

Now to say that molesting a child is one of the ways to get somebody depressed that is something that I happen to agree with but it,s not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.

Now what I think should be done is more on something like this.

There should be something done that any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse something should be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other other type of abuse.

Meaning that any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or anything else that will get somebody depressed something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse.that is what I think has to be done.

Weather to create a website & expose all these people on a website I don,t know if that,s the way to do it but something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse I think that something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.that is what I think has to be done.

As far as the best way to stop any type of abuse that I don,t know but something has to be done to stop any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse.that is what I think has to be done

let me tell you something.molesting a child is not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed & I think that something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.this is what I think has to be done.

Like let me share with you 2 very interesting experiences that I had last week.yes just last week here are 2 very interesting experiences that I had just last week.& I will tell you what it was.

Until 2 weeks ago this is what I used to do until 2 weeks ago.until 2 weeks ago I used to go out of my way just to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me.like if I wanted to go to a simcha but let,s say I know that some of the people at the simcha are people have a bad relationship with me I would say to myself like this.these people that have a bad relationship with me I know that they are going to be there I am not going to the simcha because I am afraid that they are going to harrass me at the simcha.that is what I would say to myself.i would go out of my way just to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me.

Then if I went to a simcha thinking that everybody at the simcha will be people that have a good relationship with me & when I get there some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me & I didn,t know that they were going to be there I would run away from them & ask somebody to walk me home just for my own safety.this is what I would do if I went to a simcha not knowing that some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me.

Now several friends of mine who know all about what happened about 2 weeks ago I spoke to several friends of mine about it & this is what they told me.these friends of mine said to me like this that going out of my way to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me(like not going to a simcha because I know that they will be there or running away from them & having somebody walk me home)several friends of mine told me that what I am doing is called being paranoia(somebody that gets frightened before the incident even happened).this is what several friends of mine said to me about 2 weeks ago.

Now If you go to article #64 I spoke about it over there.where noson sat right across from me at the lchaim & then pushed his elbow against my back because he felt uncomfortable sitting right across from me.

now I spoke about it in article #64 where there I just stayed right there & did not move the way my friends told me to do it.now when I went to my friends & told them about it they said that what I did was very good & that,s what I have to learn to do.

When I told my friends about how noson pushed his elbow against my back(& my back hurt me for 2 hours after that)my friends said to me like this.this is what my friends said to me.

Which would you rather have?

Would you rather run away from noson & be paranoia for the rest of your life or would you rather have your back hurt you for 2 hours after that but feel the oposite of being paranoia?

This is what my friends said to me after I told them about the incident with noson at the lchaim of levy-haim to bazel monday night at eshel.

Now later on that week I decided to listen to my friends & not be so paranoia like I have been until now & I will tell you what happened.wednesday night I went to another simcha wednesday night.

Now the simcha that I went to wednesday night some of the people at the simcha wednesday night happened to be people that have a bad relationship with me.& not just that.the people that have the bad relationship with me that were at the simcha wednesday night not only were they there when I was there I knew that they were going to be there.yes the people that have the bad realtionship with me I knew that they were going to be there & I went there even though I knew that they were going to be there.i knew that.

Now because I knew that they were going to be there my original plans was not to go to the simcha because the people that have the bad relationship with me I know that they were going to be there & I was afraid that they were going to harrass me there & that is the reason why my original plans was not to go to the simcha.

My friends told me that the simcha wednesday night I should go but just make sure not to go anywhere near the people that have the bad relationship with me.like if they are on this side of the room I should not go anywhere near them but to enjoy the simcha without the fear of them doing something to me.this is what my friends told me to do when I go to the simcha wednesday night.

Ok so listening to my friends I went to the simcha knowing that some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me when I got there the people that have the bad relationship with me I made sure to be on the oposite side of the room that they are at & guess what.the people that have the bad relationship with me did the same thing that I did & everything went well at the simcha wednesday night.i enjoyed the simcha the people that have the bad relationship with me did not give me any problems & everything went well at the simcha.

So It turns out that by me listening to my friends & going to the simcha wednesday night I was able to enjoy the simcha even though some of the people at the simcha happened to be people that have a bad relationship with me.so now with some friends of mine helping me out with this thing of being paranoia I am learning to overcome it & everything will go well for me from now on.

Now generally like I said earlier something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.not just molesting children but any type of abuse that gets people depressed.like the incident that I had with noson last week when he saw me there & sat down right across from where I was sitting even though I got there first then goes ahead & pushes his elbow against my back because he felt uncomfortable sitting right across from me & my back hurt me for 2 hours after that(i spoke about it in article #64).

Yes I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop but molesting a child is not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop weather it,s molesting a child, noson sitting right across from me when I got there first, pushing his elbow against my back something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop no matter what it is.this is what I think has to be done.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #64

noson ezagui

monday feb 3^rd 2014 11.25pm until a week ago everytime that I would see noson at a simcha I would say to myself like this.noson is over here I will go to the other side of the room that he is at.like if I would see him on this side of the room I would go to the other side of the room from wherever he is at.

Now several friends of mine told me that the next time that I see him at a simcha I should just stay right there & not move from where I am at.that is what several friends of mine told me to do.

Now doing what several friends of mine told me to do when I saw him at the lchaim of levy-chaim the lchaim was at eshel & doing what several friends of mine told me to do I just stayed right there & did not move the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.

Noson then goes ahead & sits down right across from where I was sitting at.now following the advice that several friends of mine told me to do I just stayed right there & did not move the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.i was extremely frightened but I said to myself no I am staying right here & not moving the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.

Now as noson was sitting right across from me he goes ahead gets up to get something from the other table.& as he was going to get something from the other table he happened to pass by me as he was getting this thing whatever it was from the other table.now as he was passing by me he goes ahead & pushes his elbow against my back as he was passing me to get this thing from the other table.as he was passing me he pushed his elbow against my back as he was going by me to get this thing from the other table.

Now when he pushed his elbow against my back I know the reason why he did that.the reason he did that is because he felt uncomfortable with me sitting right across from where he was at.the only thing is that he got there after me.he was not there when I got there.i mean if he would have gotten there before me & I would have sat down there after him then that,s something else.but I got there before him.i mean I got there before him he sees me there & he sits down there even though I was there first.if he saw me there why did he sit down there if he saw me there first?he goes ahead & sits there after I got there first why is he doing that?

When he pushed his elbow against my back yes I know the reason why he did that.because he felt uncomfortable being right across from me but if he saw me there first why did he sit down there if he saw me there first?

Until a week ago everytime that I saw him someplace I would just make sure to be on the other side of the room from where he was at.several friends of mine told me that the next time I see him at a simcha I should just stay right there & not move from where I am at.so doing what several friends of mine told me to do this is what he does.i mean if he got there first & I got there after him that is something else.but if he saw me there first then why did he sit down right across from me after he saw me there first?

This is just a perfect example of the kind of abuse that I am going through right now.

Menachem piekarski