Article #108

Section 8

Friday june 29th 2018 4.00am The good news is that i was aproved for section 8 housing.the 1st thing
is that i have to find a section 8 apartment.then after i find a section 8 apartment there is something else
also that i will need help with after i find a section 8 apartment.moving involves alot of expenses.& with
the limited budget that i am in there is no way that i will be able to pay for all the expenses involved in
moving(like hiring a moving company, leaving a security deposit & so forth)i will need somebody to
help me cover all the expenses involved in moving.but then there is something else that i am
concerned about even more than anything else.finding a section 8 apartment & finding somebody
who will help me cover all the expenses involved in moving those are all minor problems.there is
something else that i am concerned about even more than anything else.finding a section 8 apartment
& finding somebody who will help me cover all the expenses involved in moving those are all minor
things there is something else that i am concerned about even more than anything else.what i am
really concerned about is not to be neighbors with a jcw gangster.let,s say i find a section 8 apartment
& somebody can help me cover all the expenses involved in moving(like i will have to leave a security
deposit for my new apartment, all the expenses involved in moving & so forth)but my new apartment
involves me being neighbors with a jcw gangster & if i become neighbors with a jcw gangster there is
a 100% chance that the jcw gangster is going to give me problems there.if i find a section 8 apartment
& somebody helps me cover all the expenses involved in moving but my new apartment involves me
being neighbors with a jcw gangster then i am not going to take the apartment.

forget it i am not going to even look for an apartment.i don,t want to take the chances of being
neighbors with a jcw gangster.i am going to stay where i live right over here at 283 kingston because i
don,t want to take such a chance of being neighbors with a jcw gangster.i need a bigger apartment
but i am not going to take a chance of being neighbors with a jcw gangster.this shows you just how
much the abuse i have to go through now because of jcw.i can not even look for an apartment now
because of those jcw gangsters.the other hardships like finding a section 8 apartment & somebody
to help me with the moving expenses that is nothing compared to being neighbors with a jcw gangster.
If there is somebody that can help me out with this let me know.finding a section 8 apartment & the
expenses involved in moving that is a minor problem.my real concern is not to be neighbors with a
jcw gangster.i need a bigger apartment but i am not going to take such a chance like that.ok i am
going to stay right here in my tiny apartment at 283 kingston.living here in my tiny apartment at 283
kingston is not good for me either & i do need a bigger apartment but i would rather live in this tiny
apartment at 283 kingston than take chances of being neighbors with a jcw gangster.i don,t want to
be neighbors with a jcw gangster even if it,s the biggest apartment in the world.if there is anybody
that can help me out with this let me know.finding a section 8 apartment & the expenses involved in
moving that is also something that i need help with but my biggest concern is not to be neighbors with
a jcw gangster.if there is somebody that can help me out with this let me know.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #107(continued from article #106)

Inconsistencies

Tuesday june 5th 2018  3.00am This is a continuation of what i spoke about in article #106.  the people
that are against me because of what i once did to kids there are 4  different types.those that are
against me because of what i once did to kids there  are 4 different types.here they are.

1)they will do whatever they are able to do to me as long as they know that they will not get caught
doing it.to them i am the worst person that ever existed & a guy like me does not deserve to  live.

2)this is the vigilante type.they feel that the law is not doing  enough to protect the kids so they do
vigilante on me by making a set of rules that i have to obey & if i don,t go by their rules then they will do
something to me if i don,t go by their rules.

3)they are against  me they will try to do as much harm as possible but they are careful not to break
the law.if they see an opportunity to hurt me without breaking  the law then they will do it.

4)they are against me but they won,t do anything to me unless i bother them.

Now the  1st type which is they hold that i am the worst  person that ever existed & a guy like me
does not deserve to live.so that,s how you look at me.ok if you want to look at me that way fine look
at me that way but maybe you don,t mind if i ask you a couple of questions if it doesn,t bother you to
answer these questions for me.maybe you don,t mind if i ask you a  couple of questions if it doesn,t
bother you to answer these questions for me.& here it is.a guy like me who

1)is disabled

2)suffers alot from being depressed

3)went through a very traumatizing childhood

4)even though i weigh 300 lbs i can not fight back with somebody half my size

5)didn,t realize how serious it  is

6)didn,t mean any harm

7)has apologized 50 million  times for his actions

Maybe you don,t mind if you can explain to me how a guy like me is the worst person that ever existed.
if you can explain something like that to me then i would like to see you do it.

Now lets look at the 2nd type.which  is the vigilante type meaning that they feel that the law is not doing  
enough to protect the kids so they make a set of rules for me to obey & if i don,t go by their rules then
they will  do something to me if i don,t go by their rules & they are doing it because they feel that the
law is not doing enough to protect the kids.ok but maybe you don,t mind if i ask you a couple of
questions if it doesn,t bother you to answer these questions for me.

1)there are 168 people on the wall of shame.the rules that you give me to obey & if i don,t obey your
rules then you will do something to me if i don,t obey them.are you giving these same rules to all 168
people on the wall of shame?they all did the same thing that i did.are you giving these rules to all 168
people on the wall of shame?if you are giving the same rules to all 168 people on the wall of shame
then i can understand you giving those rules to me.but if you are not giving  those same rules to all
168 people on the wall of shame then it means that you are picking on me because you know that i
am disabled & can not fight back.plus

2)i feel that the law is not doing enough to protect me from the type of abuse that my father did to me.
while i do have to look at the good my father did  to me also(i spoke about it in article #105)

Maybe i should do vigilante on my father too?my father did me alot of good also but i still feel that the
law is not doing enough to protect me from the abuse that he did to me.so maybe i should  do vigilante
on my father too.or you are going to say that my father is a good person just because he is my father.
is that what you are going to say?the abuse that my father did to me i spoke all about it in article #105.

Now let,s look at the 3rd type which  is they are out to do as much harm as they possibly can but they
are careful not to break the law.now for those that are out to do as much harm as they possibly  can
without breaking the law let me just say something on that.a couple of years ago there was an article
on collive which spoke all about onoas devorim.here is a copy of that article on collive from a couple
of years ago.here it is.

Jul 24, 2015

Before Commenting, Read This

Before typing away your comment against a person or an opposing opinion, read what halacha says
about verbal harassment.

By Rabbi Chaim Hillel Raskin, Moreh Hora'ah at Beis Hora'ah in Rechovot, Israel

The Torah says, "A man should not wrong his fellow."[1] Chazal explain that one must be sincere in
social interactions just as in business, and one may not harass another person verbally or cause him
any discomfort (ono'as devarim).[2]

Here are some examples of this prohibition brought in halacha:

One may not call a person by a derogatory nickname. Even if the nickname is generally used in a
friendly manner (e.g. height, hair color), one may not use it if his intention is to make him
uncomfortable.[3]

One may not mention to a person a previous lifestyle that will make him uncomfortable
(e.g. before he was Torah observant).

One may not ask someone a question for which he won't know the answer and will be ashamed.[4]
Thus, one may not ask a guest to recite a dvar Torah if they don't have what to say.[5]

Likewise, it is forbidden to test a child on material or in a manner which he won't be able to answer,
and he will become embarrassed (unless this is necessary to motivate him).[6]

One may not knowingly send a person to a supplier that doesn't carry the sought after product, thereby
causing agony to the buyer or the seller.[7]

One may not tell someone who is going through a hard time that they are at fault, because they didn't
do what they were supposed to.[8] One may only suggest that they reexamine their actions in a
gentle way that won't hurt their feelings.[9]

Chazal say that verbal harassment is even more severe than causing financial damage since he
hurts the person himself (not his property) and the misdeed cannot be undone (unlike a financial
loss which can be repaid). If the one who was harassed cries out to Hashem he is immediately
answered.[10]

Beis Din has the authority to punish a verbal harasser. Some say that he should be placed in nidui
(a form of cherem) until he will monetarily appeases the offender, while others hold that he
deserves makas mardus (lashes).[11]

SOURCES:

1. ויקרא כה, יז.

2. ב"מ נח ע"ב.

3. שו"ע חו"מ סי' רכח ס"ה.

4 . שו"ע שם ס"ד.

5. ספר חסידים סי' שיב.

6. ראה פתחי חושן הלכות אונאה פט"ו הע' יב.

7. ראה שוע"ר הל' אונאה סכ"ח.

8. ראה שוע"ר שם, ומפרשי הגמ' בב"מ שם.

9. ראה ברכות דף ה' ובמפרשים שם, שהרי אמרו חז"ל שכשיסורים באים לאדם יפשפש במעשיו.

10. שוע"ר שם סכ"ז.

11. ראה פת"ח שם ס"ב ובהערות.

Originaly published in Lmaan Yishmeu, a publication by Merkaz Anash

Now while there is such a thing as freedom of speach just because you are within the law does
not mean that what you are doing is right.just because it,s legal does not mean that it,s mutar by
halachah.maybe eat chazer on yom kippur too.you won,t go to jail for eating chazer on yom kippur.
maybe do that too.so you want to hurt me as much as possible without breaking the law while you
are not as bad as the  first 2 types of jcw gangsters you are oiver(am i spellinng it right?)the halachah
of onoas devorim.

Now let,s look at the 4th type which is they are against me but they will not do anything  to me unless
i bother them.those that are against me but they will not do anything to me unless i bother them
those types of people maybe they don,t mind if i ask them something if it doesn,t bother them to
answer this for me.did you ever hear of ahavas yisroel?veohavto lereacho komocho?a guy like me
who

1)Is disabled

2)suffers alot from being depressed

3)weighs 300 lbs but can not fight back somebody half his  size

4)went through a very traumitizing childhood

5)didn,t realize how serious it is

6)didn,t mean any harm

7)has apologized 50 million times for his actions

& you can not forgive somebody like me?ok if you feel that you have to close off the relationship with
me fine do it but i just want to let you know what you are doing.

Menachem piekarski

Article #106(continued from article #105)

Inconsistencies

Monday june 4th 2018 8.00pm This is continuation of what i spoke about in article #105 Now last week
there were a couple of times last week when i was at different simchas in crown heights when people
came over to me & asked me to leave.they  did not touch me or do anything to me but they just came
over to me & asked me to leave.now everytime somebody comes over to me & asks me to leave they
are frightening me & after 120 years you will have to give a very big din vcheshbon for frightening me
like that.when i go to a simcha the only ones that have the right to ask me to leave is the one that
makes the simcha or the parents, grandparents, great grandparents & so forth.meaning that if it,s a
lchaim, chasuna or sheva brochos then the only people that have the right to ask me  to leave are the
choson, kallah, chosons parents, kallahs parents grandparents & so forth.if it,s a sholom zochor, bris
or pidyon haben then the parents, grandparents or great grandparents of the baby are the only ones
that have the right to ask me to leave.if it,s an obsherin then the parents, grandparents & great
grandparents of the kid have the right to ask me to leave.if it,s a bar mitzvah then the bar mitzvah
bochur himself or his parents or his grandparents are the only ones that have the right to ask me to
leave.now everytime somebody other than these people that i just mentioned ask me to  leave they are
frightening me & after 120 years they will be burning in gehinom for frightening me at the simcha.the
people that i just mentioned now are the only ones that have the right to ask me to leave & nobody else
except the people that i just mentioned have the right to ask me to leave.

But now comes a little different topic.a little change of topic.the fact that these jcw gangsters are
frightening me by asking me to leave that is one thing  but maybe now i can bring up something else
also if you don,t mind.

All those that came over to me at different simchas last week asking me to leave maybe you don,t
mind if i ask you something if it doesn,t bother you to answer this for me.there are 168 people on jewish
community watch & the  wall of shame are you doing the same thing to all 168 people on the wall of
shame?are you doing that to all 168 people on the wall of shame or just to me?if you go to a simcha
& you see any of the others on the wall of shame at the simcha are you going to ask them to leave
also?because if you are doing that only to me & not to the others on the wall of shame then it means
that you are picking on me because you know that i am disabled & can not fight back.

Now  comes something else also a little different.this is something else & a little different too but maybe
i can bring this up also & here it is.all those that came over to me & asked me to leave the simcha last
week  if you like you can say like this if you like.

I DID NOT TOUCH MENACHEM.ALL I DID IS ASK HIM TO LEAVE.THE FACT THAT I
FRIGHTENED HIM BY ASKING HIM TO LEAVE THAT IS HIS PROBLEM NOT MINE.ALL I DID IS
FREEDOM OF SPEACH.I DID NOT TOUCH HIM OR DO ANYTHING TO HIM & WHAT I DID IS
NOTHING MORE THAN FREEDOM OF SPEACH.THE FACT THAT I FRIGHTENED HIM BY
ASKING HIM TO LEAVE THAT IS HIS PROBLEM NOT MINE.WHAT I DID IS NOTHING MORE
THAN FREEDOM OF SPEACH

Now if you like you can something like that if you like.but in that case everything i say on this site is
also freedom of speach.if you like you can say freedom of speach but in that case you have nothing
 to complain about if if i speak about it on this site because everything i say on this site is also freedom
of speach.

Now as time goes on i am going to be talking about this more & more & more as  time goes on

Menachem piekarski.(continues with article #107)

Article #105(continued from article #104)

Inconsistencies

the abuse that my father did to me

Friday june 1st 2018 3.15am  This is a continuation of what i spoke about in article #104. Some people
are trying to convince me to forgive my father for what he did to me.now all those that are trying to conv
ince me to forgive my father for what he did to me i have alot of good things to say about my father too.

Now if i look only at the bad things my father did to me then of course i will end up hating my father
because i am looking only at the bad things he did to me but if i look only at the good things my father
did for me then of course i will end up liking my father because i am looking only at the the good things
he did for me.i have alot of good things to say about my father & looking at the good things my father did
for me i give my father full credit for all the good things he did for me & looking at the good things my
father did for me he gets full credit for all the good things he did for me.now all the good things my father
did for me i have alot of respect for him for the good things he did for me but the harm my father did to
me is much more than the good he did for me.lets say you have a scale.on one side of the scale is all
the good things my father did for me & on the other side of the scale is all the bad things my father did to
me the side of the scale which has all the bad things my father did to me will easily outweigh all the
good my father did for me.if you have on one side of the scale all the bad things my father did to me &
on the other side of the scale all the good things my father did for me the side of the scale with all the
bad things my father did to me will easily outweigh all the good my father did for me.

Now looking also at the good things my father did for me maybe i can just speak about some of the
harm my father did to me & how the abuse my father did to me really messed up my life. maybe i can
speak about that also & i will tell you now what happened.

i am the 2nd oldest of 11 children.i look much younger but i am 51 years old turning 52 this coming
summer.my brother chaim he is the oldest i am the 2nd oldest my sister devorah kreiman from los
angeles is the 3rd oldest with 8 siblings younger than mrs kreiman.

Now like i said i am looking also at the good things my father did for me but the harm my father did to
me easily outweighs the good he did for me.when i lived in my parents house under my parents support

my father had a very abusive policy on me.if i would complain to my parents against any of my siblings
my parents would say to me like this.if you don,t like something here then you can leave.if any of my
siblings would complain to my parents against me i would always get into trouble for it.all of my siblings
know that they have the full freedom of starting up with me with absolutely no fear of getting into trouble
at all.some of my siblings took advantage of that & started up with me because they knew that they
were not going to get into trouble for it.this is called preferential treatment which means 2 people that
don,t get along & somebody who is in charge of both of them gives preferential treatment to one of
them over the other one.

Then i had problems with my father that had nothing to do with any of my 10 siblings.my father would
ask me a question that had different answers depending upon the situation.so i tried explaining to my
father that it depends upon the situation.in this situation it is this answer & in that situation it is that
answer.but my father would not let me explain that to him.my father would ask me to give him one
answer.then he would say that i refused to answer his question.then when i complained about how i am
being treated he would say to me like this.menachem you are over 18 years old i don,t have to support
you anymore if you don,t like something here then you can leave.

When i left my parents house 26 years ago at age 25 let me tell you what happened that day.the day i
left my parents house.it was shabbos by day.we were having the shabbos by daytime meal my father
started up with me at the shabbos table on front of my little siblings.the youngest one was a little baby
at that time.my father started up with me at the shabbos table on front of all of my siblings.this time i
had it enough i got violent took the lachteh that was on the shabbos table & smashed it on the floor.all
of my little siblings got frightened & started crying.my father then called the cops on me.when the
police arrived my father dropped the charges against me & that is the only reason why i was not
arrested.because my father dropped the charges against me.my father told everybody in my family
about how i smashed the lachteh on the floor & for several years after that i carried a bad name in my
family as the menachem that threw the lachteh.

I left my parents house not knowing what  was going to be with me.i just packed my things headed to
770 not knowing what was going to be with me.baruch hashem i got help right away & managed to get a
roof over my head.i was very close to becoming homeless.baruch hashem i got help right away & that
is the only reason why i now have a roof over my head.how i got help is a little personal but it was a
ness min hashomayim that i did manage to get a roof over my head.

3 days after i left my parents house my father called me up he was upset at me because i told people
that he threw me out.he then tells me that i am welcome to come to the house anytime i like & that i had
better stop telling people that he threw me out.this was 3 days after i left the house.my father then starts
calling me up all the time asking me to visit the family.at that time caller id was not so popular back then
so i had no idea who was calling me back then.now with caller id around i know who is calling so i can
decide weather to answer the phone or not.but caller id was not so popular back then.with all the phone
calls that i was getting from my father asking me to visit my family i decided to spend some time with
my family because of all the phone calls that i was getting from my father asking me to visit my family
again.spending time with my family my father continued to bully me in the house even though i was
there only for a visit.my father continued to start up with me even though i was there only for a visit &
when i complained about how he was treating me he would tell me that if i don ,t like something here i
can leave.eventually i stopped visiting my family & closed off the relationship with my father because of
how he was bullying me when i was there for a visit.

Now when i left my parents house 26 years ago at age 25 i was very depressed not only because of
what he did to me in the house but also because of all those phone calls that i was getting from my
father asking me to visit the family.being very depressed i thought that maybe if i start molesting children
that things would go better for me if i start molesting children.that is what went through my mind when i
left my parents house 26 years ago at age 25.& that is how i got into the mess that i am in right now.

Now when my father bullied me in the house he did not know that this was going to cause me to molest
children but he knew that it was going to get me depressed.maybe he did not know that it was going to
cause me to molest the kids but he knew that it was going to get me depressed.

Now like i said at the beginning of this article my father gets full credit for all the good things he did for
me but the bad that he did  to me which is

1)giving preferential treatment to his 10 other kids over me plus

2)saying things to me like that i am over 18 years old he doesn,t have to support me anymore & if i
don,t like something in this house i can leave plus

3)all those phone calls that i got from my father asking me to visit the family so he can bully me more
when i am in this house

4)got me very depressed & because of the depression that i was suffering from caused me to molest
the kids

all of this outweighs by far the good my father did for me & that is the reason why i am blaming my
father for everything that i have to go through right now because of jcw.because if my father would have
taken better care of me than he did my life would have been a whole lot happier than it is at right now &
i never would have had to go through everything that i have to go through right now because of jcw.&
that is the reason why i am blaming my father now for everything that i have to go through right now
because of jcw.

Now comes a little different topic.a little different topic & here it is.everything my father did to me the way it affected me by causing me to molest the kids & everything that i have to go through right now because of jcw that is one thing but let me speak about a couple of inconsistencies that i noticed in my father.the way it affected me by causing me to molest the kids & everything that i have to go through now because of jcw that is one thing but let me speak about a couple of inconsistencies that i noticed in my father.

1)when he gave preferential treatment to my 10 other siblings over me if he wants he can say that his
10 other kids are more important to him than i am.ok but in that case why does he want me back in the
house if i am not as important to him as his 10 other kids?plus

2)when i told people that he threw me out it may not have been that much the truth but it was not that
much of a lie either because of all the times that he said to me that i am over 18 years old he does not
have to support me anymore if i don,t like something in the house then i can leave & when he says
things like that to me that is a form of throwing me out.it might not be the same thing as physically
throwing me out but it is a form of throwing me out when he says things like that to me.plus a year
before i left he did throw me out a year before i left but took me back in that evening so when i told
people that he threw me out while it might not have been the 100% truth it was not that much of a lie
either.plus

3)when i smashed the lachteh on the floor he told everybody in my family about it.he told everybody in
my family how i frightened my little siblings by smashing the lachteh on the floor.ok understandable but
in that case then why does he want me back in the house then if i am such a violent person?3 days
after this happened he called me up asking me to visit the family.fine if i am such a violent person then
why does he want me back in the house if i am such a violent person?

4)when my father called me up asking me to visit the family he can say that he is mochel me for
smashing the lachteh on the floor but in that case why did he tell everybody in the family about it if he
is mochel me for it?

If my father can get back to me with an answer to everything that i spoke about in this article.

Now like i said at the begining of the article my father gets full credit for all the good he did for me but
everything that i spoke about in this article by far outweighs all the good he did for me.

Now as time goes on i am going to be speaking about this more & more & more as time goes on.

Menachem piekarski.(continues with article #106)