Article #65

my personal opinion regarding the closure of JCW

paranoia

sunday feb 9^th 2014 1.15am now regarding the closure of of JCW(jewish community watch)this is how I look at it.

I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & yes I do agree that something has to be done to bring it to a stop.

Now as far as JCW & the wall of shame was the right way to do it that I don,t know.

Or when he says that he closed because of lack of funds weather that is the only & real reason why he closed or if he is lying so that he can hide the real reason for closing that I don,t know either.

But this is something that I do happen to know about.

While I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop I do happen to know that molesting a child is not the only type of abuse to get somebody depressed.there are many other types of abuse that can get somebody also depressed.i do agree that molesting a child is one of the ways to get somebody depressed but it,s not the only way to get somebody depressed>& this is something that I happen to know about.my father never molested me but he abused me in other ways that got me also very depressed.

The problem with meir seewald is that he thinks that molesting a child is the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.meir seewald thinks that it,s totally impossible to abuse somebody unless you molest a child.

This is meir seewald,s way of thinking.

MOLESTING A CHILD IS THE ONLY TYPE OF ABUSE THAT CAN GET SOMEBODY DEPRESSED & THAT IT IS TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO ABUSE SOMEBODY UNLESS YOU MOLEST A CHILD!!!!!!!!!

this is meir seewald,s way of thinking.

Now I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing to do & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop but to say that molesting a child is the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed that is something that I do not agree with.there are many ways to get somebody depressed without molesting a child.

Now to say that molesting a child is one of the ways to get somebody depressed that is something that I happen to agree with but it,s not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.

Now what I think should be done is more on something like this.

There should be something done that any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse something should be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other other type of abuse.

Meaning that any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or anything else that will get somebody depressed something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse.that is what I think has to be done.

Weather to create a website & expose all these people on a website I don,t know if that,s the way to do it but something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse I think that something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.that is what I think has to be done.

As far as the best way to stop any type of abuse that I don,t know but something has to be done to stop any type of abuse weather it,s molesting a child or any other type of abuse.that is what I think has to be done

let me tell you something.molesting a child is not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed & I think that something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.this is what I think has to be done.

Like let me share with you 2 very interesting experiences that I had last week.yes just last week here are 2 very interesting experiences that I had just last week.& I will tell you what it was.

Until 2 weeks ago this is what I used to do until 2 weeks ago.until 2 weeks ago I used to go out of my way just to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me.like if I wanted to go to a simcha but let,s say I know that some of the people at the simcha are people have a bad relationship with me I would say to myself like this.these people that have a bad relationship with me I know that they are going to be there I am not going to the simcha because I am afraid that they are going to harrass me at the simcha.that is what I would say to myself.i would go out of my way just to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me.

Then if I went to a simcha thinking that everybody at the simcha will be people that have a good relationship with me & when I get there some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me & I didn,t know that they were going to be there I would run away from them & ask somebody to walk me home just for my own safety.this is what I would do if I went to a simcha not knowing that some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me.

Now several friends of mine who know all about what happened about 2 weeks ago I spoke to several friends of mine about it & this is what they told me.these friends of mine said to me like this that going out of my way to avoid people that have a bad relationship with me(like not going to a simcha because I know that they will be there or running away from them & having somebody walk me home)several friends of mine told me that what I am doing is called being paranoia(somebody that gets frightened before the incident even happened).this is what several friends of mine said to me about 2 weeks ago.

Now If you go to article #64 I spoke about it over there.where noson sat right across from me at the lchaim & then pushed his elbow against my back because he felt uncomfortable sitting right across from me.

now I spoke about it in article #64 where there I just stayed right there & did not move the way my friends told me to do it.now when I went to my friends & told them about it they said that what I did was very good & that,s what I have to learn to do.

When I told my friends about how noson pushed his elbow against my back(& my back hurt me for 2 hours after that)my friends said to me like this.this is what my friends said to me.

Which would you rather have?

Would you rather run away from noson & be paranoia for the rest of your life or would you rather have your back hurt you for 2 hours after that but feel the oposite of being paranoia?

This is what my friends said to me after I told them about the incident with noson at the lchaim of levy-haim to bazel monday night at eshel.

Now later on that week I decided to listen to my friends & not be so paranoia like I have been until now & I will tell you what happened.wednesday night I went to another simcha wednesday night.

Now the simcha that I went to wednesday night some of the people at the simcha wednesday night happened to be people that have a bad relationship with me.& not just that.the people that have the bad relationship with me that were at the simcha wednesday night not only were they there when I was there I knew that they were going to be there.yes the people that have the bad realtionship with me I knew that they were going to be there & I went there even though I knew that they were going to be there.i knew that.

Now because I knew that they were going to be there my original plans was not to go to the simcha because the people that have the bad relationship with me I know that they were going to be there & I was afraid that they were going to harrass me there & that is the reason why my original plans was not to go to the simcha.

My friends told me that the simcha wednesday night I should go but just make sure not to go anywhere near the people that have the bad relationship with me.like if they are on this side of the room I should not go anywhere near them but to enjoy the simcha without the fear of them doing something to me.this is what my friends told me to do when I go to the simcha wednesday night.

Ok so listening to my friends I went to the simcha knowing that some of the people at the simcha are people that have a bad relationship with me when I got there the people that have the bad relationship with me I made sure to be on the oposite side of the room that they are at & guess what.the people that have the bad relationship with me did the same thing that I did & everything went well at the simcha wednesday night.i enjoyed the simcha the people that have the bad relationship with me did not give me any problems & everything went well at the simcha.

So It turns out that by me listening to my friends & going to the simcha wednesday night I was able to enjoy the simcha even though some of the people at the simcha happened to be people that have a bad relationship with me.so now with some friends of mine helping me out with this thing of being paranoia I am learning to overcome it & everything will go well for me from now on.

Now generally like I said earlier something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop.not just molesting children but any type of abuse that gets people depressed.like the incident that I had with noson last week when he saw me there & sat down right across from where I was sitting even though I got there first then goes ahead & pushes his elbow against my back because he felt uncomfortable sitting right across from me & my back hurt me for 2 hours after that(i spoke about it in article #64).

Yes I do agree that molesting a child is a very bad thing & that something has to be done to bring it to a stop but molesting a child is not the only type of abuse that can get somebody depressed.something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop weather it,s molesting a child, noson sitting right across from me when I got there first, pushing his elbow against my back something has to be done to bring any type of abuse to a stop no matter what it is.this is what I think has to be done.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #64

noson ezagui

monday feb 3^rd 2014 11.25pm until a week ago everytime that I would see noson at a simcha I would say to myself like this.noson is over here I will go to the other side of the room that he is at.like if I would see him on this side of the room I would go to the other side of the room from wherever he is at.

Now several friends of mine told me that the next time that I see him at a simcha I should just stay right there & not move from where I am at.that is what several friends of mine told me to do.

Now doing what several friends of mine told me to do when I saw him at the lchaim of levy-chaim the lchaim was at eshel & doing what several friends of mine told me to do I just stayed right there & did not move the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.

Noson then goes ahead & sits down right across from where I was sitting at.now following the advice that several friends of mine told me to do I just stayed right there & did not move the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.i was extremely frightened but I said to myself no I am staying right here & not moving the way that several friends of mine told me to do it.

Now as noson was sitting right across from me he goes ahead gets up to get something from the other table.& as he was going to get something from the other table he happened to pass by me as he was getting this thing whatever it was from the other table.now as he was passing by me he goes ahead & pushes his elbow against my back as he was passing me to get this thing from the other table.as he was passing me he pushed his elbow against my back as he was going by me to get this thing from the other table.

Now when he pushed his elbow against my back I know the reason why he did that.the reason he did that is because he felt uncomfortable with me sitting right across from where he was at.the only thing is that he got there after me.he was not there when I got there.i mean if he would have gotten there before me & I would have sat down there after him then that,s something else.but I got there before him.i mean I got there before him he sees me there & he sits down there even though I was there first.if he saw me there why did he sit down there if he saw me there first?he goes ahead & sits there after I got there first why is he doing that?

When he pushed his elbow against my back yes I know the reason why he did that.because he felt uncomfortable being right across from me but if he saw me there first why did he sit down there if he saw me there first?

Until a week ago everytime that I saw him someplace I would just make sure to be on the other side of the room from where he was at.several friends of mine told me that the next time I see him at a simcha I should just stay right there & not move from where I am at.so doing what several friends of mine told me to do this is what he does.i mean if he got there first & I got there after him that is something else.but if he saw me there first then why did he sit down right across from me after he saw me there first?

This is just a perfect example of the kind of abuse that I am going through right now.

Menachem piekarski

Article #63

apology for the way I spoke in article #62

sunday jan 12^th 2014 2.05am there have been a couple of times when I tried to bring something up but the way I say it I did not say it in a very nice way & then later on I realize that the way I said it that it was really very not nice for me to say it that way & that I shouldn,t have said it that way.

Now the way that I spoke in article #62 I just removed that article before(article 62 is not there anymore)& for those of you that did read article #62(i just removed it before)it was really very not nice for me to speak that way & I would really like to apologize for the way that I spoke in article #62.

now the way that I spoke in article #62 it was really very not nice of me to speak that way & I will try to say it in a nicer way without hurting anybody the way I did it in article #62.

now what I once used to do to kids I should not have done that & I am really very sorry for what I once used to do to kids.

Now one of the guys that is against me for what I once used to do to kids he is now a choson & I am very good friends with the family of his kallah.& I have been to simchas in the family of the kallah before he became a choson.

Now he does not have to be my friend if he doesn,t want to & everytime I go to a simcha in the family of the kallah I will stay away from him & not go anywhere near him.but I just want to let him know that I am going to be there so he shouldn,t get startled when he sees me at the simcha.

I understand that what I once did to kids that was really very bad & I really should not have done that & the choson happens to be against me because of what I once used to do to kids.but I just wanted to let him know that I am friends with the family of the kallah & that he should not get startled when he sees me there.

My sisters daughter is married to the brother of the kallah so after the chasuna he is going to be my nieces brother in law after the chasuna.

Now the way that I spoke ina rticle #62 it was really very not nice of me to speak that way(& I removed that article allready)but I just wanted to let him know that my neice is married to his kallahs brother.that,s all I wanted to do.sorry about the way that I spoke in article #62.

menachem piekarski.

Article #61

something in todays portion of chumash

tuesday parshas shemos the 14^th of teves 5774 dec 17^th 2013 3.25pm now I will admit that I am not a tzadik.yes I have done many things that I was not supposed to do & I am very far from a tzadik but I just want to speak about something that is in todays portion of chumash.

In todays portion of chumash it speaks about how moshe rabeinu saw dathan & aviram arguing & he said to the rosho lomo sakeh reacho.now it says that he didn,t even hit the person.he just picked up his hand to hit the person & that alone made him a rosho.now this shows that if you pick up your hand to hit somebody even if you don,t hit him that alone makes makes you rosho.which means that if somebody threatens to touch me just by threatening to touch me that alone makes him a rosho.

Now I don,t like to embarrass people & because of that I am not going to say his name but even though I am not going to say his name everybody is going to know who this person is that I am talking about.even though I am not going to say his name everybody is going to know who this person is that I am talking about.

now I am not going to say his name(because I don,t like to embarrass people)& because I am not going to say his name the name that I am going to give him is the name david.really his name is not david but since I don,t want to give his name that,s the reason why I am giving him the name david.now I will tell you what it,s all about.

this guy david he has used his hands on me & beaten me up twice already.now some of my friends have been telling me that david is right for attacking me & beating me up because I molested one of his relatives.they are telling me things that because of statue of limitations david is very upset that I was never prosecuted or even arrested for what I did to one of his relatives & if it would have been within the statue of limitations I would have spent 30 years behind bars & the reason why david is not attacking or beating up any of the other people on JCW(jewish community watch)is because even though the other 46 on JCW did the same thing that I did they did not molest any of davids relatives & I am the only one from the 47 on JCW that molested one of davids relatives.these friends of mine are telling me that david is right for attacking me & beating me up & if I would have molested one of the relatives of these friends of mine then they would have atacked me & beaten me up the same way that david did it to me.this is what some of my friends are telling me.

Now I have many different answers to this.i am telling you I have many different answers to this & I will tell you what it,s all about

1)almost 11 years ago when I was 36 years old I tried having my father locked up in jail for the abuse that he did to me but since I was 36 I was also too old to press charges against my father(i know I look younger but I am 47 years old now)so speaking about statue of limitations for what I once did to kids i have a statue of limitations against my father too.plus

2)when I did it I was very depressed I didn,t realize how serious it is & I didn,t mean any harm but when my father abused me he knew that this was going to mess up my life & my father does not suffer from the kind of depression that I suffer from.plus

3)all of those that I molested I am really sorry for what I did & I asked mechilah from all those that I molested but my father shows absolutely no remorse for what he has done to me.plus

4)speaking about statue of limitations everything that I spoke about in article #46 happens to be in my favor & if I would have been arrested for what I once did to kids I would have spoken to my lawyer about everything that I spoke about in article #46.i don,t know how much time I would have spent behind bars but I don,t think that it would have been for 30 years like some people are telling me.plus

5)i am the only one from the 47 on JCW that was attacked & beaten up for what I once did to kids.the other 46 on JCW the ones that they molested none of the realtives of the ones that the other 46 molested attacked & beat them up for it.if david is right for attacking me & beating me up then how come the other 46 on JCW were not attacked & beaten up by the relatives of those that they molested?

6)all those that are against me for what I once did to kids if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you go to article #46 read everything that I spoke about there in article #46 & give me an answer to what I spoke about there.i mean if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me answer to what I spoke about there.all the people that are against me for what I once did to kids not one of them was able to give me an answer to what I spoke about there in article #46.i mean if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me an answer to what I spoke about in article #46?because if I would have been arrested fore what I once did to kids I would have spoken to my lawyer about everything that I spoke about in article #46.i am telling you if I would have been arrested I would have spoken to my lawyer about everything that I spoke about in article #46.plus

7)every person no matter what kind of a criminal record he has even somebody that has been arrested 50 million times yes even somebody that has been arrested 50 million times every person has the right to go to the police & ask the police to protect him from somebody that is threatening to touch him.plus

8)like I said several friends of mine have told me that david is right for attacking me & beating me up because I molested one of his relatives & they would have done the same thing to me if I would have molested one of their relatives.but here is the thing.if they would decide to attack me & beat me up for molesting one of their relatives would they do it every time they see me in the street?i don,t think so.they would probably attack me & beat me up once & then not bother me again after that.ok david attacked me & beat me up twice already.don,t you think that it,s about time that I should have the right to tell david to stay away from me & not harras me anymore?i mean he did it to me twice already I think it,s about time that I should have the right to tell him to stay away from me & not harrass me anymore.I am telling you from the 2 times that david has attacked me & beaten me up I learned my lesson not to do what I once did to kids.i am going to remember it for the rest of my life & this is more than enough for me to learn not to do something like that again.

I stopped doing this over 9 years ago in 2004.until 9 years ago 2004 I used to go to every single sholom zochor in crown heights regardless of weather I knew the family or not.since 2004 I only go if I know the family & good friends with the family & I have been doing this for over 9 years already.

Now when I used to go to every sholom zochor in crown heights the reason I went was so that I can get to know a lot of families that way & find the right family to go to for help.& that,s the reason why I did it.what was I supposed to do?i was very depressed so I decided to go to sholom zochors get to know a lot of families that way & find the right family to go to for help then after I became friends with the family I would go ahead & molest the kids of the families that I became friends with & that,s how I got myself into the mess that I am in right now.

Now if you go to article #58 I spoke about it over there about everything that my family did to me that caused me to close off my relationship with them & find other families to go to for help.i mean I was forced to close off the relationship with my family & find other families to go to for help & that,s how I got myself into this mess now.

I do agree that what I did was very bad & I really was not supposed to do that but just because I did that that,s not a reason for anybody to use their hands on me & beat be up just because I did something like that.

I am not asking meir seewald to remove me from his site.even though at one time I did ask him to remove me from his site I am not asking him to do it.

I am not asking anybody to let me go near their children.anybody who feels that I am a threat to little kids is doing the right thing not letting me go near them.

I am not asking anybody to be my friend.anybody who feels that I am not the right person to be friends with & they don,t want to have anything to do with me that,s fine & I have nothing against you for it.

this is a free country & you have the right to decide who you want to be friends with & who you do not want to be friends with & if you feel that I am not the right person to be friends with that,s fine & I have nothing against you for it & to the person that I bothered 2 weeks ago I am sorry for doing that & it,s not going to happen again.

Now there is something that I need everybody in crown heights to do this for me.if I go to a simcha & somebody from the family doesn,t want me there I do not want anybody from the family to come over to me & ask me to leave.what the family should do then is call the police & have the police escort me out.just dial 911 & say that there is somebody over here & you don,t want him here & have the police escort me out.the reason is because I get very frightened whenever somebody from the family asks me to leave.whenever somebody from the family asks me to leave I get very frightened whenever that happens.& that,s the reason why I need the police to escort me out.there have been many times that I did not go to a simcha because I knew that somebody from the family didn,t want me there but sometimes I go to a simcha thinking that everybody from the family wants me there & when I get there I find out that the family doesn,t want me there & they make leave.i understand that.i went to a simcha where the family doesn,t want me there & when I get there they make me leave.i understand that.the only thing is that I get very frightened whenever somebody from the family comes over to me & asks me to leave that,s the reason why I need it done this way.when you call the cops if they ask you why you won,t just come over to me & make me leave yourself you tell the them(the 911 operator)that I get very frightened whenever somebody from the family asks me to leave & that I need it done this way(tell that to the 911 operator).this doesn,t happen too often but sometimes I go to a simcha thinking that everybody in the family will be happy to see me there & when I get there I find out that the family doesn,t want me there & they make me leave.the only thing is that I get very frightened whenever the family asks me to leave & that,s the reason why I need it done this way.this is only for the rare time that I go to a simcha thinking that everybody in the family will be happy to see me there & when I get there I find out that the family doesn,t want me there.

Menachem piekarski

Article #60

I am sorry

tuesday dec 3^rd 2013 the 7^th night of chanukah 10.35pm today I went over to somebody I was going to ask him if he can do something for me.before I even had a chance to tell him what I need from him he got very angry at me & he was really going to give it to me just for trying to ask him if he can do something for me.

Now when I went over to him I did not know that he was going to get so angry like that.i thought that he was going to let me talk to him.i wasn,t sure if he was going to do what I needed from him but I didn,t know that he was going to get so angry like that just for aproaching him & try to ask him for something.

When he saw that I was aproaching him before I even had a chance to tell him what I need from him he was already after me ready to really give it to me before I even had a chance to tell him what I need from him.

Now this person that I went to yes I knew that he has a bad relationship with me yes I knew that but I didn,t know that he was going to get so angry like that just for aproaching him to ask him for something.

If I would have known that he was going to get so angry like that I would not have gone over to him.i didn,t know that he was going to get so angry like that.i knew that he had a bad relationship with me but I didn,t think that he was going to get so angry like that just for going over to him & asking him if he can do something for me.

Anyways to the person that I went to today to ask him if he can do something for me I didn,t know that he was going to get so angry at me just for aproaching him like that I am sorry for doing it & it,s not going to happen again.you didn,t have to get so angry like that.all you had to do was say that you don,t want me coming near you & that you want me staying away from you & I would have listened to you if you would have said just that to me.you didn,t have to get so angry at me just for aproaching you & asking you if you can do something for me.anyways I am sorry for doing that & it,s not going to happen again.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #58

ADOPTION

sunday oct 20th 2013  9.06pm now it,s going to be a little bit difficult to explain but I will try to explain it the best way possible.when I was living in my parents house my parents had a very abusive policy on me.anytime that I would go over to either my father or my mother & complain to them against any of my brothers or sisters my parents would always tell me that if I don,t like something in this house then I can leave.& at the same time if one of my brothers or sisters would complain to my parents against me I would always get into trouble.all of my brothers or sisters know that they have the full freedom of starting up with me with absolutely no fear of getting into trouble at all.

Then I had a whole bunch of problems with my father that had nothing to do with my brothers or sisters.for example one of the problems that I had with my father was that winter clothing like coats, gloves, scarfs & things like that my father would never buy me any of those things.i had to pay for it out of my own money.but that wasn,t the only problem.let me tell you what happened after that.if the temperature outside was too high my father would not let me go outside with a wintercoat if the temperature was above 40 degrees & he would take away clothing that I paid for out of my own money.the fact that I had to pay for all the winter clothes that wasn,t so bad but when he takes away clothing that I paid for out of my own money what am I supposed to do?

Now when I left my parents house almost 22 years ago at age 25(i am 47 now)as soon as I left my parents started calling me up asking me to come back home.

Now it,s going to be a little difficult to explain but I will try to explain it the best way possible.

when I was living in my parents house under their support if my parents would have put me up for adoption there is a very high chance that my adoptive parents would have taken better care of me than they did & my life would have been a lot happier than the way it is now at.but instead of putting me up for adoption they decided to abuse me & because of that that,s the reason why my life is the way it is now at.

Now it,s going to be a little difficult to explain but I will try to explain it the best way possible.

I don,t know how old I was when my parents realized that I am disabled but I know that I was under 18 years old when my parents realized that I am disabled.

Now when my parents realized that I am disabled let me tell you what they should have done.

They should have said to themselves like this.

Menachem is disabled.we do not have the patience to take care of him the way that we are supposed to we are going to put him up for adoption & hopefully his adoptive parents will take better care of him than we are able to.

That is what my parents should have done as soon as they realized that I am disabled.

But instead of putting me up for adoption they decided to abuse me inside the house & look what kind of life I am going through right now.(crown heights watch, jewish community watch, yanky prager, meir seewald, noson ezagui all the abuse that I am going through right now).

Now the abuse is still not over.& I will show you how.if my parents would have put me up for adoption there is a very high chance that my adoptive parents would have taken better care of me than they did & my life would have been a lot happier than the way it is now at.

But now the abuse is still not over.i have my family sending me invitations asking me to come to all the simchas in the family so this time I sent my brother chaim an e-mail asking him not to send me any more invitations.so when I e-mailed this to me brother he gives me a reply back telling me that he is going to continue sending me invitations even though I asked him not to.

It,s bad enough that my parents did not put me up for adoption the way that they were supposed to but now I have my brother chaim telling me that he is going to continue sending me invitations even though I asked him not to.

Here I am going to show you the e-mail that I sent to my brother chaim & look at the response that he gave me.here it is.

7184046404@vzwpix.com

Sep 9

to me

Mazel Tov on the engagement of our daughter Rochel to Yossi Berkes The Vort will take place Tuesday evening at Lubavitcher Yeshiva Albany Ave Between Crown st and Montgomery St. 8PM Chaim Piekarski

Menachem Piekarski <mpiekarski79@gmail.com>

5:27 AM (14 hours ago)

to 7184046404

chaim.can you please take me off your mailing list & stop sending me invitations everytime that you make a simcha.

your brother menachem.

7184046404@vtext.com

7:40 AM (12 hours ago)

to me

Since you are my brother I will continue to send you invitations. It is your choice whether to come or not.

This is exactly what I mean by abuse.not only didn,t my parents put me up for adoption the way that they were supposed to but now they are sending me invitations asking me to come to all the family simchas & when I ask my brother chaim not to send me any more invitations look what he says to me.

This is exactly what I mean by abuse.

Menachem piekarski.

Article #57

wednesday oct 16^th 2013  1.10am now I am not going to say who this person is or which store it was at but I will tell you what happened.i was at the cleaners today to pick up my suit.now there was this person that I happen to have a very bad relationship with him.i am not going to say who this person or which store it was at but as I was standing in line to pick up my suit the person in line directly on front of me happens to be somebody that I happen to have a very bad relationship with him.he got there before me I got there after him & I was standing in line directly behind him to pick up my suit from the cleaners.

Now the person that I have the bad relationship with he felt very uncomfortable with me standing in line right behind him.now normally I would have waited until he leaves the store to get in line but since they were closing(they close at 7pm & it was already after 7pm)i had to get in line to pick up my suit before they close & that,s the reason why I had to do that.

Now to the person whom I have a bad relationship with him I know that you felt very uncomfortable with me standing in line right behind you but I had to pick up my suit before they close.normally I would have waited until you leave the store to even get in line but I had to pick up my suit before they close & that,s only the reason why I had to do that.sorry about that.

Menachem piekarski.

article #56

Article #56

mechilah

monday july 15^th 2013 erev tisha bav 12.00am one of the things that I did this past year when I publicized the names of one of my victims I would like to apologize for doing that.there are alot of families who used to be my good friends & these families who used to be my good friends now don,t want to have anything to do with me anymore because of that & from all the friends that I lost because of that I realize now how wrong it was for me to do something like that & I am really very sorry for doing something like that.i am really very sorry for doing something like this & it,s not going to happen again.this is something that I really should not have done & I am really very sorry for doing it.

But let me just give you the reason why I did that.noson ezagui the son of shlomo & sheina 1227 president apt 2c whenever I see him someplace like at a simcha or any other place he is always harrasing me & following me around wherever I go & no matter how much I try to stay away from him he is always following me around wherever I go no matter how much I try to stay away from him.& he has used his hands on me a couple of times also.

I tried to get an order of protection against him but I wasn,t able to.so I figured that maybe if I speak about something that he doesn,t want me speaking about then maybe he will think twice before coming near me again & that,s the reason why I did that.

Now the reason why it was wrong of me to do that is for 2 different reasons.

1)because when I publicized the names of one of my victims I was reminding him of what I once used to do to him many years ago plus

2)i was hurting one person because of something that somebody else is doing to me.like I will go & hurt reuven because of something that shimon did to me.so here I am hurting somebody else because of something that noson is doing to me.

& that,s the reason why it was wrong of me to do that.like I am going to hurt one person because of something that somebody else is doing to me & that,s the reason why it was wrong of me to do that.

Now the person where I publicized his name as one of my victims I really want to ask you mechilah for doing that & it,s not going to happen again.but let me just tell you the reason why I did that.

There are 37 people on JCW(jewish community watch)& I am one of them.does noson go around attacking & beating up the other 36 people on JCW?i mean if noson went around doing this to the other 36 people also then I can understand him doing this to me.

First of all there are alot of things that happen to be in my favor & if you go to article #46 everything that I spoke about in article #46 happens to be in my favor but on top of everything that I spoke about in article #46 that happens to be in my favor does noson go around doing this to the other 36 people also?

I am not asking meir seewald to remove me from his site.even though at one time I did ask him to remove me from his site I am not asking him to remove me from his site.

I am not asking anybody to let me go near their kids.anybody that feels that I am a threat to little kids they are doing the right thing not letting me go near them.

I am not asking anybody to be my friend.anybody who feels that I am not the right person to be friends with & they don,t want to have anything to do with me that,s fine & I have nothing against you for it.

All I am asking is that you do not harrass me & as long as you do not harrass me then I have nothing against you as long as you do not harrass me.

Now once again it was really very wrong of me to publicize the names of one of my victims but I just wanted to let you know what caused me to do that.

Now if noson comes over to me apologizes to me for harrasing me & tells me that he is not going to do it again then I will be more than happy to remove him from this site.that,s all he has to do to be removed from this site.

All he has to do is come over to me apologize to me for harrasing me & tell me that he is not going to do it again & I am going to remove him from this site as soon as he does that.

There are 37 people on JCW & I am one of them.does noson do this to the other 36 people also?

As soon as noson comes over to me apologizes to me for harrasing me & tells me that he is not going to do it again & I will remove him from this site as soon as he does that for me.

Menachem piekarski.

article #55

Article #55

I said hello to somebody else that was walking on front of her.

sunday july 7^th 2013 5.38pm the person that I spoke about in article #46 I saw his mother today on kingston ave.we were passing each other in oposite directions.i was walking in one direction & she was walking the other way & we were passing each other in oposite directions(the mother of the person that I spoke about in article #46).now as we were passing each other she gave me a very upsetting look like I am such a bad guy like she never met somebody as bad as me.a real upsetting look she gave me today like I am the worst person that she ever met in her life.that,s the kind of look that she gave me as were passing each other today in oposite directions.

Now my answer to that is very simple.if I am such a bad guy then why don,t you give me an answer to everything that I spoke about in article #46?everything that I spoke about in article #46 happens to be in my favor & if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me an answer to everything that I spoke about there?

now I know the reason why you can not give me an answer to that.it,s because you know that I am right.& that,s the reason why you can not give me an answer to what I spoke about in article #46.because if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me an answer to everything that I spoke about there in article #46?

ok fine.if you feel like you don,t want to be my friend anymore & you don,t want to have anything to do with me because of what I once used to do to kids that,s fine & I have nothing against you for that but if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me an answer to everything that I spoke about in article #46?

now the person that I spoke about in article #46 when I saw his mother today on kingston ave & we were passing each other in oposite directions & she gave me this very upsetting look like I am such a terrible person a very good friend of mine was walking right on front of her & I said hello to my friend that was walking right on front of the mother of the person that I spoke about in article #46 so as I said hello to my friend she thought that I was saying hello to her.it was a friend of mine that was walking right on front of her that I said hello to.that,s the person that I said hello to.not to her.but if I am such a terrible person then why don,t you give me an answer to everything that I spoke about in article #46?

menachem piekarski.

article #54

Article #54

the video from JCW titled as friendly message for camp summer staff

wednesday june 26^th 2013 4.09am the 6 min video that came out a couple of days ago titled as friendly message for camp summer staff I would like to say a little bit of what I think of that video.

on that video there are several different speakers there on that video & from all the things that were discussed in that 6 min video I would like to give my opinion on some of the things that were discussed in that video there.

At around 3.40 into the video when rabbi jacobson says not to deny what you have done but to admit to what you have done I would like to say something about that.from the 36 people on JCW I am the only one from the 36 people that is admitting publicly on my own website to what I have done.not one of the other 35 people are admitting to what they have done the way that I am doing it.they might admit to it privately to their friends & family but not one of the other 35 people are admitting to it the way that I am doing it.so when you see how the other 35 people on JCW will not admit to what they have done I am the only one from the 36 people that is admitting to it the way that rabbi jacobson said it should be done.

& that,s not the only thing.one of the other things that was discussed in that 6 min video I would like to give my opinion on one of the other things that was also discussed in that 6 min video.at around 2 min into the video when rabbi levka caplan says how much harm a rebbie can do to his talmud by calling the talmud an insulting name I would like to say something about that.

Let,s say somebody comes over to me & calls me an insulting name I usually ignore it.yes it does hurt when somebody insults me but I just ignore it.the only time that I get angry is if the person either

uses his hands on me or

threatens to use his hands on me or

is continuosly following me around all over the place & no matter where I go this person is just following me around all over the place no matter where I go

those are the only times that I will get angry.but if a person comes over to me & calls me an insulting name I just ignore it & not let it bother me.

Now when rabbi caplan speaks about how bad it is for a rebbie to insult his talmud I usually just ignore it if somebody insults me.but when you watch the video & around 2 min into the video when rabbi caplan speaks about how bad it is for a rebbie to insult his talmud but yet when somebody comes to me & uses his hands on me what,s about that?

Yes I must admit that a rebbie calling his talmud an insulting name is a very bad thing to do but using your hands on somebody is much worse than calling somebody an insulting name.

Now around 30 sec into the video when meir seewald says that he will not tolerate any kind of abuse & he(meir seewald)says that he does not care who you are which family you come from or even the biggest name he will expose you if you molest a child than a little bit after that like one min into the video when rabbi jacobson says that imagine that you are in the worst mood the hottest temper would you entertain the idea to molest a child?ok I understand that.when I used to molest children over 10 years ago I was very depressed back then I did not realize how serious it was & I did not mean any harm & if you go to article #46 everything that I spoke about in article #46 happens to be in my favor but despite everything that I spoke about in article #46(which happens to be in my favor)I still have nothing against meir seewald for putting me on his site & the fact that I am on his site I am accepting that as a punishment for what I once used to do to kids over 10 years ago.

Now when I first saw myself over a year ago on what was then crown heights watch I got very frightened & I threatened to publicoze the names of my victims if I don,t get removed.that,s what I did when I first saw myself over a year ago on what was then crown heights watch.the reason I did that is because I got very frightened when I saw myself on what was then crown heights watch.but later on I realized that it was very wrong of me to do that & I did not complain when I saw myself back up on JCW.the only time I get angry is if people pick on me because they know that I am disabled & I can not fight back.that,s the only time that I get angry.

Menachem piekarski.

article #53(continued from article #52)

i would like to apologize to notie shemtov for what i originally said about him

tuesday march 28th 2013 3.10am originally i wrote that notie also surounded me like the other hooligans did but not only didn,t notie do anything to me he even tried to help me but he wasn,t able to.when i got home i was very depressed & not realizing that notie tried to help me by mistake i said that notie also surrounded me like the other 10 hooligans but not only didn,t notie do anyhting to me he even tried to help me with the situation but he wasn,t able to because he was also outnumbered by these 10 hooligans surrounding me.

notie i really want to apologize for speaking out against you & would like to thank you for what you tried to do for me & i hope that you are mochel me for what i originally said about you.

when i got home i was very depressed & not being in my right mind by mistake said that notie also surrounded me like the other 10 hooligans did but a little later realized that not only didn,t notie do anything to me but he even tried to help me out with the situation.

i am really very sorry for what i originally said about you & would  like to thank you for everything that you tried to do for me.

thank you very much for everything that you did for me & i would really like to ask you for mechillah for what i originally said about you.thank you very much notie.

menachem piekarski

Article #52

VIGILANTE

monday may 27^th 2013 12.19am several people are trying to convince me to forgive my father for what he has done to me.now for all those people that are trying to convince me to forgive my father for what he has done to me I have a couple of things to say about that.

I am now 46 years old & I am the 2^nd oldest of 11 children.now When I used to live in my parents house my father had a very abusive policy to me.anytime that I would go over to my father & complain to my father against any of my brothers or sisters my father would always tell me that if I don,t like something in the house then I can leave.all of my brothers & sisters know that they have the full freedom to start up with me anytime I like without any fear of getting into trouble at all.

Now when I left my parents house 21 years ago at age 25 I was very depressed back then & I had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help.now trusting them that they were the right family to go to for help I went to one particular family in crown heights trusting them that they were the right family to go to for help.the family that I went to for help I spoke about them in article #46.the family that I spoke about in article #46 that,s the family that I went to for help trusting them that they were the right family to go to for help.

Now not realizing how serious it is I made a little mistake & I molested one of the children from the family that I spoke about in article #46.this person that I spoke about in article #46 he eventually started hitting me & beating me up before I closed off my relationship with his family over 4 years ago.

After closing off my relationship with his family over 4 years ago this person then went ahead & put me on JCW(jewish community watch).at first I was very chutzpidik & threatened to publicize the names of my victims if I don,t get removed.that,s what I did at the beginning.later on I realized that it was not right of me to do that & I did not complain when I saw myself back up on JCW.

Now noson continued harrasing me even after I removed him from my site.so I figured that if I publicize the names of one of my victims that noson might think twice before coming near me again.

Now I was asked not to publicize the names of any of my victims but I will tell you what happened.the person that I spoke about in article #46 his older brother came over to me at the chasuna of cousin to melendez & tells me that he wants to speak to me outside.i told him that he can send me an e-mail.he then picks up a chair to me & threatens to beat me up if I don,t go outside with him.i then had about 10 people surrounding me.the 10 people that surrounded me I know the names of 4 of them.one of them is the older brother of the person that I spoke about in article #46 & because I can not publicize the names of one of my victims I can not say this person,s name but he is the older brother of the person that I spoke about in article #46.three of the other people that surrounded me is yanky prager, his brother levy & meir seewald.the remaining 6 people I don,t know their names.

Now with 10 hooligans surrounding me I started to scream for help.but with 10 people holding me captive I was outnumbered & I had no choice but to just do what they ask me to do(i was outnumbered by them).now as these 10 hooligans were holding me captive I told them that I want to settle this with the police.they said that they will beat me up before the police arrive.

notie shemtov who is the choson,s brother in law & a very good friend of mine saw what was going on tried to help me but with 10 hooligans surounding me there wasn,t much that he could do.notie tried to help me but with 10 hooligans surrounding me there wasn,t much that he could do.so now with 10 hooligans surrounding me (this was outside of the razag hall)one of them had his face covered & with his face covered gave me several kicks & punches & because his face was covered I could not identify who he is.after they let me go I stopped a police car at the corner of empire & troy.but the police did not respond to me.but somebody who saw me trying to flag down the police car dialed 911 & stayed with me until the police arrived.while we were waiting meir seewald goes over to this guy that called the police for me & tells him that I am a child molester.but as the police arrive meir seewald walks away as the police arrive .

Now as meir seewald was walking away I told the police to catch meir seewald because he was one of the 10 people that surrounded me.the police went after meir seewald & detained him.I told the officers everything what happened but the police refused to do anything about it.i then asked the officers if they can escort me to my house but the officers refused to do even that for me.so being extremely terrified I said to myself like this.ok if they decide to attack me on my way home then there is nothing that I can do about it.i have no choice but to let them attack me if they want to.

Now as I was walking home yisroel shemtov stops me on the street & tells me that I had better remove that article or it will not be safe for me to walk the streets of crown heights if I don,t remove that article.he didn,t touch me or do anything to me but he said that to me as I was walking home.then a little later on yanky prager comes over to me & calls me a child molester.after yanky called me a child molester I stopped off at one of my friends & told them what happened.this friend of mine called up yanky prager & spoke to him about it.this friend of mine then tells me that I should remove that article about me publicizing the names of my victims.

Ok I have no choice but to just remove that article about me publicizing the names of my victims.because if I don,t I will not be able to live too much longer.sure it,s very easy for 10 hooligans to attack me & beat me up anytime they see me in the street.so now with 10 hooligans after me i guess I have no choice but to just listen to them & do what they say.

& even with the removal of this article of me publicizing the names of my victims these 10 hooligans are free to harass me & annoy me as much as they want & nobody to protect me from them & I am pretty sure that these 10 hooligans are going to take adavntage of that.if you think that I am convinced that these 10 hooligans are going to stay away from me & not come anywhere near me even with the removal of this article I will believe that the same way that I will believe a couple of other stories.

Now I have complete bitachon that everything that happens to a person is bashert min hashomayim & if it,s bashert min hashomayim that I should have to go through this type of abuse then I guess that there is nothing that I can do about it.

Sure my father ruined my life.when I left my parents house 21 years ago at age 25(i am 46 now)i had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help & because I picked the wrong family to go to for help this is what I have to go through now.

Ok nothing that I can do about it.so the 10 hooligans that surrounded me last night at the razag hall plus the 3 hooligans that I have on this site plus all the people that are planning to join these 13 hooligans you are all free to attack me & beat me up as much as you like & I am pretty sure that all 13 of you(the 10 that surrounded me at the razag hall plus the 3 that I have on this site now)are going to attack me & beat me up many more times in the future & I have absolutely nobody to protect me from the 13 of you.

But let me just say one thing to all 13 of you(as well as to all those that are planning to join these 13 hooligans in the future)all of you are going to have to give a big din vcheshbon for everything that you are doing to me.when it comes your time to go up to shamayim all 13 of you are going to have to answer a lot of things after 120 years.

Let me just say a couple of things here.

My father ruined my life & I had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help & simply for picking the wrong family to go to for help this is what I have to go through simply for picking the wrong family to go to for help plus

if you read the article properly I said that I will remove that article if noson & all of his friends stay away from me for 3 months & all noson had to do is send me an e-mail apologizing for harrasing me & I would have removed that article right away.but instead of apologizing to me for it(where I would have removed it instantly if you would have done that)you go ahead & you have this gang of 10 hooligans surrounding me at the razag hall?let me tell you something noson.after 120 years you are going to have to give a big din vcheshbon for what you are doing to me now.

& to yanky prager let me say a couple of things to yanky prager.you claim that you are protecting all the kids in crown heights from what I used to do to kids over 10 years ago I have a couple of questions to ask you about that.

1)there is such a thing as vigilante.do you know what vigilante means?vigilante means something which is legal to do no law against it but you decide to make that into a law & enforce it on disabled people like me that can not defend themselves.so you decided to make it a law of what I am allowed to talk about on my own site & if I don,t go by your rules you & the other 12 hooligans are going to attack me & beat me up when I walk the streets of crown heights if I don,t listen to you about what I can talk about on this site.& when I told you to call the police you said no because of the statue of limitations.that,s exactly what vigilante is.it,s not the law but you decided to make it into a law & enforce it on disabled people like me.that,s exactly what vigilante is.i was going to remove that article in a month from now & promise to keep it off if noson & all his friends stay away from me.so instead of behaving like a mentch this is what you do to me?let me tell you something.after 120 years you are going to have to give a big din vcheshbon for what you are doing to me now.

2)also another thing.like I said vigilante means enforcing something that is legal to do on disabled people like me that can not defend themselves but I have another question to ask you.what I am doing is not even against the halacha.because if I was breaking the halacha then why don,t you take me to a din torah?if you think that what I am doing is against the halacha then go ahead & take me to a din torah.so this shows that you don,t believe not in halacha & not in the law either.because if I was breaking the law then why don,t you turn me over to the police?& if I was breaking halacha then why don,t you take me to a din torah if I am breaking halacha?this shows what kind of a criminal terrorist you are.

3)now because I don,t have anybody to protect me from a criminal terrorist like you I have no choice but to listen to you & remove that article.but even though I am calling you a criminal terrorist I am listening to you & removing that article so now that I am listening to you & removing that article do you promise me that you are going to both

a)stay away from me &

b)make sure that everybody else in your group stays away from me also

or now you are going to attack me again for calling you a criminal terrorist.that,s right.you are going to attack me again for calling you a criminal terrorist or are you going to make sure that everybody in your group stays away from me.

& while you were holding me captive I told you that I am one of 32 people on JCW do you do this to the other 31 people on JCW?you answered me that the other 31 people don,t have a website where they publkicize the names of their victims.

Ok so now that I removed that article publicizing the names of my victims you will stay away from me & make sure that everybody in your group stays away from me also.is that what you are going to do or are you going to attack me again for calling you a criminal terrorist?

4)on my way home I stopped off at the house of one of my friends & told them what happened.this friend of mine called you up & spoke to you about it.you told this friend of mine that you did not touch me.that,s true but you were one of the 10 people that suroundeed me while the guy with his face covered kicked me & punched me several times.so all 10 of you are responsible for that guy that kicked me & punched while his face was covered.

This friend of mine also told me to remove that article about me publicizing the names of one of my victims & this friend of mine that I stopped of by on my way home that called you up he told me that if I listen to you & remove that article & somebody attacks me after I do that then he will take care of it.so even though I am calling you a criminal terrorist since I am listening to you & removing that article(because of that vigilante that you are doing to me)do I have your promise that you will both stay away from me & make sure that everybody in your group stays away from me also or you are going to attack me again for calling you a criminal terrorist.

Now for those of you that are trying to convince me to forgive my father for what he has done to me I have a couple of things to ask you about that.

After leaving my parents house 21 years ago at age 25(i am 46 now)i had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help & I simply picked the wrong family to go to for help & this is what I have to go through now because of that plus

as you can see there is a lot of vigilante here(these 10 hooligans that surrounded me at the razag hall because they know that I am disabled can not fight back & nobody to protect me from them so they feel that they can enforce any rules they want me to obey threatening to attack me if I don,t listen to them)like not calling the cops or taking me to a din torah & this came from the abuse that my father did to me because I had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help & even now nobody from my family is going to protect me from something like this & I should forgive my father for this?

This is very simple.nothing that I could have done about it.my father ruined my life I had to use my own judgement in deciding which family to go to for help & this is what I have to go through now.& to all of you that are calling me a molester.if I really am a molester then why don,t you turn me over to the police?better why don,t you take me to a din torah for it?you won,t do that because you know that you are going to lose.

Sure it,s very easy.if you know that I am going to be at a certain place at a certain time then you just arrange it for all 10 of you to be there wait for me attack me & because I am outnumbered I have no choice but to just listen to you & do what you say.let me tell you something.all 10 of you you are all going to have to give a big din vcheshbon for what you are doing to me now.because if I was really as bad as you say I am then why don,t you turn me over to the police?why don,t you take me to a din torah for that.

Sure very easy.just have 10 people attack me someplace.& even if I listen & don,t say anything inapropriate on this site even then I still have no protection against these 10 hooligans attacking me in the street even if I listen to all of you.

I am disabled I can not defend myself nobody in my family will protect me from you sure go ahead attack me again & there is nothing that I can do to stop the 10 of you from attacking me again.

Menachem piekarski. (continues with article #53)

Article # 51

something very important that I have to speak to both noson & saadya about(but not that serious)

friday may 17^th 2013 isru chag shavuos 12.31am noson & saadya I am not angry at them for this but I just want to make sure that we don,t have any problems when I go to hachai publishing or to webers bicycle shop in boro park.

Yossi strasberg happens to be a very good friend of mine but because saadya works at his bicycle shop on empire anytime I need something for my bike I always go to a bicycle shop out of crown heights.yossi strasberg is my good friend but because saadya works at his bicycle shop on empire that,s the reason why I have no choice but to go to bicycle shops out of crown heights any time I need something for my bike.

But that,s not the only problem.there is another thing also.hachai publishing which is on top of empire kosher I have friends that works at hachai publishing & alot of times I go to hachai publishing to visit my friends that work there.

Now I am not angry.i am not upset but I just want to make sure that we don,t have any problems anytime I visit my friends at hachai puiblishing.now if it,s possible I always try to get to hachai publishing without passing to close to saadya but that,s not always possible & sometimes we don,t have a choice but for me & saadya to pass very close to each other whenever I visit my friends at hachai publishing.

Now whenever I visit my friends at hachai publishing if me & saadya have to pass close to each other then as long as saadya behaves himself & does not harrass me or do anything to me then I will have nothing against him for it.meaning that if saadya just does what he has to do & does not harass me or do anything to me then I will have nothing against him for it.if saadya harrases me or does anything to me there then I will get angry but if saadya just does what he has to do & does not harras me or do anything to me there then I will have nothing against him for it.i just want to make sure that there are no problems between me & saadya anytime I visit my friends at hachai publishing.

Now that,s not the only problem.there is another thing that also has to be taken care of.yossi strasberg happens to be a very good friend of mine but because saadya works there I have no choice but to go to bicycle shops out of crown heights anytime I need something for my bike.

Now one of the bicycle shops that I go to out of crown heights happens to be webers bicycle shop in boro park.now there is a small problem there also.noson,s father has his furniture store right next door to webers bicycle shop in boro park.& whenever I need something for my bike that,s one of the stores that I go to whenever I need something for my bike.now whenever I visit webers bicycle shop noson,s father that has his furniture store right next door to the bicycle shop anytime I go to webers to get something for my bike noson might be there at his fathers furniture store in boro park.

Now if I am visiting webers bicycle store & noson happens to be there too then as long as noson does not harrass me or do anything to me there then I will have nothing against noson for it as long as noson does not harrass me or do anything to me there.meaning that if noson just does what he has to do & does not harass me or do anything to me there then I will nothing against him for it.if noson harases or does anything to me there then I will get angry but as long as long as noson behaves himself & does not harass me or do anything to me then I will have nothing against him for it.

I just want to make sure that there are no problems between me & saadya whenever I visit my friends at hachai publishing & no problems between me & noson whenever I go to webers bicycle shop in boro park.

Menachem piekarski.